Sorry that i've been a little quiet, AGAIN! I've had some awfully mind numbing diploma in health and social care to complete. It's very much my own fault for putting it off over and over again ... but i've just had funner things to be doing. Making christmas decorations with Blake being one of them ... watching shitty day time tv being the other (yes Jeremy kyle is more interesting than infection control believe it or not ... now you come to mention it the two could be very much interlinked at times ... quite a few of the guests on that show look as if they have a few infections that need controlling to be honest).
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| Making christmas salt dough decorations with the babies!!! yay!! |
Although i've been predictably slack with the ol' diploma i've been uncharacteristically organised when it comes to my christmas shopping!!! The little man's gifts are all present and correct!! I've even wrapped some of them! Im far from finished ... so lets not get too carried away but im half way there with everyone else's :) So fingers crossed i'll be avoiding the last minute christmas eve dash, the most stressful process in the universe! (People, women in particular, appear to become rabid beasts while christmas shopping.) ONLINE ALL THE WAY!
I have however found myself going slightly over board this year with Blake's christmas presents. I don't think I even realised I was doing it at first. I'm not usually the kind of mother that spoils her child with over the top material objects but I got a bit caught up in it this year. Part of me wonders whether it was because im trying to compensate for the fact that his father isn't going to make any effort. When I asked him if he was getting Blake a christmas present the response was he wont have time. We still have like 3 weeks till christmas don't we? Or has christmas day changed this year!?? Sadly the responce I received was the predicted one, so it wasn't a shock that his father seriously doesn't give a shit. I even considered buying a present out of the maintainance that I receive and writing "from Dad" on the tag ... what the hell was I thinking!?? He isn't even old enough to know the difference at the moment, but I feel let down on his behalf. I think I just felt the need to give him double the amount of presents, just as I feel I have to love him double the amount.
Still you never know ... life is full of surprises apparently. Even a christmas card from him to Blake would be something.
Love love xx
How Blake made me smile today: His new favourite thing to say "tickle tickle".... possibly the cutest thing i've ever heard!!! xx
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